I have tried many things to help my situation, different modalities, coaches/healers, programs but nothing has had any lasting effects.  I don\'t want to spend anymore money (on credit) unless I know i will have the results i\'m looking for.  I have recently had a realization that I\'ve had a pattern of feeling stuck in many areas of life going back to childhood and it seems to be a big part of whats holding me back in doing the kind of work i want, expressing myself creatively, and being in a loving relationship (its been 15+ yrs!).  